Showing posts with label ano hana. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ano hana. Show all posts
Sunday, 3 July 2011
27th-3rd June/July 2011
Friday, 3 June 2011
Conversation of Mass
Chillin' in the State Library again. Googling "conservation of mass" or as Albino says, "conversation of mass."
So, I had my last Flute Ensemble rehearsal before our concert about half an hour ago. Last night I freaked out. Literally. We have this really hard piece called Whirpool. It's fast, full of triplets and many, many accidentals. There was one particular line I could not play and she told off my section last week for playing it VERY wrong. Last night I played it like, 50 times (in between being on the internet and watching episode 8 of AnoHana (we'll get to that later)) and could OCCASIONALLY play it right and at the correct-ish tempo. I was tearing my hair out. Almost literally. Anyway, after dinner and going to Maccas for desert (love Friday nights with my parents. Both brothers go to youth groups and we usually go get Maccas desert in between. Mmm) I practiced some more and at about 9pm, I had a breakdown. Serious. It was not pretty. Crying, shaking, blubbering mess just freaking out about today and next week's concert. My mum was trying to calm me down saying, "It's OK. All you can do is keep practicing. It'll be fine. Your concert was great last year, just ask your conductors questions," etc. It was... interesting. I realised then how much I worry bout little things. See, I'm not so worried about the actual concert. Whatever. If I stuff up (and I WILL) it's OK. I am freaking out about where I'll store my saxophone during my flute concert, where I'll get changed in between concerts, if I'll get lost in between and stupid little thing like that. Those things will be fine, but that's what freaks me out the most. It's so dumb. You see, I freak out about these things in the week/s leading up to the event, but it's always fine when it actually happens. For example, my Flute Ensemble rehearsal, which the thought of made me a blubbering mess, went well. It was actually quite good. Thank God. Literally. I was standing there at the end internally going, "THANK YOU, GOD!!" Because I'd been praying last night that He would help me stay calm and just do my best today. I would do a religious rant on how much my praying has changed over the last year thanks to one particular song, but that could take hours and I'm supposed to be starting my second Physics assignment...
BUT, I want to talk about Ano Hana. I watched episode 8 last night. It was wonderful. Truly wonderful. I will try not to give away any spoilers but it made me want to cry. Twice. I nearly did. Twice. It's such an emotional show and I am so glad I found it because I was really looking for a tearjerker kind of show. This show's going to make it into my Top 3 Animes for sure. So far, my all-time favourites are Fruits Basket and Kaichou wa Maid-Sama and I am almost certain this will be in this group once it's done. Well, it's already up there and it's only up to episode 8. I am so addicted :) I'm going to watch episode 1 of Durarara!! tonight, hopefully.
So, I had my last Flute Ensemble rehearsal before our concert about half an hour ago. Last night I freaked out. Literally. We have this really hard piece called Whirpool. It's fast, full of triplets and many, many accidentals. There was one particular line I could not play and she told off my section last week for playing it VERY wrong. Last night I played it like, 50 times (in between being on the internet and watching episode 8 of AnoHana (we'll get to that later)) and could OCCASIONALLY play it right and at the correct-ish tempo. I was tearing my hair out. Almost literally. Anyway, after dinner and going to Maccas for desert (love Friday nights with my parents. Both brothers go to youth groups and we usually go get Maccas desert in between. Mmm) I practiced some more and at about 9pm, I had a breakdown. Serious. It was not pretty. Crying, shaking, blubbering mess just freaking out about today and next week's concert. My mum was trying to calm me down saying, "It's OK. All you can do is keep practicing. It'll be fine. Your concert was great last year, just ask your conductors questions," etc. It was... interesting. I realised then how much I worry bout little things. See, I'm not so worried about the actual concert. Whatever. If I stuff up (and I WILL) it's OK. I am freaking out about where I'll store my saxophone during my flute concert, where I'll get changed in between concerts, if I'll get lost in between and stupid little thing like that. Those things will be fine, but that's what freaks me out the most. It's so dumb. You see, I freak out about these things in the week/s leading up to the event, but it's always fine when it actually happens. For example, my Flute Ensemble rehearsal, which the thought of made me a blubbering mess, went well. It was actually quite good. Thank God. Literally. I was standing there at the end internally going, "THANK YOU, GOD!!" Because I'd been praying last night that He would help me stay calm and just do my best today. I would do a religious rant on how much my praying has changed over the last year thanks to one particular song, but that could take hours and I'm supposed to be starting my second Physics assignment...
BUT, I want to talk about Ano Hana. I watched episode 8 last night. It was wonderful. Truly wonderful. I will try not to give away any spoilers but it made me want to cry. Twice. I nearly did. Twice. It's such an emotional show and I am so glad I found it because I was really looking for a tearjerker kind of show. This show's going to make it into my Top 3 Animes for sure. So far, my all-time favourites are Fruits Basket and Kaichou wa Maid-Sama and I am almost certain this will be in this group once it's done. Well, it's already up there and it's only up to episode 8. I am so addicted :) I'm going to watch episode 1 of Durarara!! tonight, hopefully.
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So, basically I have several ships and one-sided ships in this show. In my opinion Tsuruko (far left above) should be in love with Yukiatsu (second from left above). Yukiatsu should, however, be in love with Menma (chick next to him). Menma should not really be in love with anyone. Jintan (guy next to Menma) should have a thing for either girl next to him, but I don't really mind if he isn't in love with either. Anaru (next to Jintan) should be, and is, in love with Jintan. Poppo (on the end) shouldn't be in love with anyone. He's just the comic relief. So, in my ideal shipping world, everyone would end up being depressed over unrequited love? Hm. Depressing. But, weirdly enough, that's how I'd like it. I can't see any of them being couples.
I'll be off now. I need to put more tags in my blog to get more views, guys. My most tagged things are Fruits Basket and Relient K. Not surprising at all.
That weird moment when you think you've seen your Music Teacher walk past. It wasn't her. All is right with the world.
I have the compulsion to look at the Ano Hana TVTropes page... Oh dear...
Wednesday, 1 June 2011
If You're So Evil, Eat This Kitten!
So, I have no idea what to blog about right now, but I haven't blogged in days and I felt the need. The need for speed? No.
Last night I spent an extensive amount of time looking up mental disorders. It may be weird, but I find them fascinating. Very interesting. In particular, I read about Social Anxiety Disorder (again...), other Anxiety Disorders, Stress Disorders like Generalised Stress Disorder and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I self-diagnosed myself with all of these. I have no doubt in my mind that I have a form (even if it is only relatively mild) of Social Anxiety Disorder/Social Phobia. I also believe I have a form of Stress Disorder and a mild case of OCD.
I was wondering, "Why do I like diagnosing myself? Why do others like doing it too?" I guess it's because you feel a lot better once you can put a name to the weird things you do. Like, you may go through life constantly washing you hands and ritualistically washing your hair and being all, "Oh my gosh, I'm so weird," but I think it CAN (it may not) give you comfort to be able to put a name to your issues and just be able to say, "It's OK. I have OCD. There's a reason. I'm not crazy." That's what I think anyway.
Now, online tests are pretty cool. I kinda have done many... Including the Sanity Quiz or something. You do like, a 5-page quiz and it gives you a score for many different mental illnesses/disorders/various other issues. Your highest scored ones are "danger zones" and then gives you advice for them and lower scoring ones. Pretty interesting, actually. I totes have no issues with drugs or alcohol, guys :P
I also realised yesterday (I really didn't do much work yesterday) how much I like side characters in books, TV shows, movies, animes etc. Main characters generally bore me. I don't usually dislike them, but I am usually indifferent to them. If there is a main guy and a main girl, I generally dislike the girl and like the guy. Also, I don't usually like the fan favourites...
EXAMPLES:
- Fruits Basket. Sure, my favourite character is one of the main ones, but I never liked Tohru, the MAIN character. She bored me. And annoyed me. And I strongly disliked Yuki, a fan favourite.
- AnoHana. Yeah, I've only recently started this, but still. Jintan= boring. Menma= meh. Typical, cute girl. I am indifferent towards the both of them. Yukiatsu (more of a side character)- favourite. Love him. Basically, I like the other four 'less-major' characters (Yukiatsu, Anaru, Poppo & Tsuruko) but not the main two.
- Total Drama. Yeah. Phantomess and I were talking about this very thing this afternoon. Here is my group of favourite characters from all three seasons: Heather, Alejandro, Duncan, Harold, Trent, Courtney. Apart from Duncan, these guys are all generally pretty hated in the fandom. There are some fans, though. Now, the favourites of the fandom: Gwen, Cody, Noah. Never liked Gwen- one of my least favourites. Indifferent towards Cody. I like Noah, but I often forget about him.
- Special A. Indifferent towards the main female, Hikari. I loved the main male, Kei and the minor male characters Tadashi and Ryuu.
- La Corda D'Oro. Hino (took my awhile to remember her name) bored me. I didn't like most of the guys that much, I just loved Tsukimori, and he is either loved or hated by fans.
- Wicked. Strangely. Kind of. Now, I like most characters. And of course, I like Elphaba, but... for a lot of it, I didn't feel drawn to her, as a character. My feelings towards Elphaba are very hard to explain. Ones that I just loved outright were Glinda, Fiyero and, strangely enough, Nessarose.
- My Fair Lady. Eliza's pretty meh. I hated the guts of Henry Higgins. Favourite character? Freddy.
- Matched. The book I recently finished reading. Didn't care much about the main character. For some reason, I really did not like the guy she fell in love with. Instead, I like the guy she ditched for Guy She Fell In Love With. I keep meaning to do a review of this book...
Anyway, you get the point. Linking both of the topics of this post together, I realised on the bus home today, that I like characters with issues. Freudian Excuses. Troubled But Cute. Jerk With A Heart of Gold. Even good ol' Jerkass. I love characters, particularly attractive male characters, with weird internal issues.
I have also come to the realisation of the inflation in my fangirl behaviours over the past year. Not even a whole year, really. Before this year and some of last year, I never used to be anywhere near as interested in fictional characters. I didn't really listen to songs from certain bands *cough*Relient K*cough* to hear the very attractive voices of certain singers *cough*Matthew Thiessen*cough*. I never used to obsessively look up pictures of characters I found attractive to compile large folders of pictures before creating collages... Well, I like my obsessions, you know. It's fun to emotionally attach yourself to other lives. Yes, at times it is quite depressing, but whatever.
What's that? I have a Physics assignment due in 2 weeks? I have a Maths exam next week? I have a concert on next Saturday on a piece I can't play? I have English Extension stuff due soon? And English homework due tomorrow? Hm. Writing it all there made me realise how badly I do need to get off here. And made me feel kinda stressed. No. Calm. Breathe.
Title courtesy of TVTropes: http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/Ptitle6vgp6b47
Last night I spent an extensive amount of time looking up mental disorders. It may be weird, but I find them fascinating. Very interesting. In particular, I read about Social Anxiety Disorder (again...), other Anxiety Disorders, Stress Disorders like Generalised Stress Disorder and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I self-diagnosed myself with all of these. I have no doubt in my mind that I have a form (even if it is only relatively mild) of Social Anxiety Disorder/Social Phobia. I also believe I have a form of Stress Disorder and a mild case of OCD.
I was wondering, "Why do I like diagnosing myself? Why do others like doing it too?" I guess it's because you feel a lot better once you can put a name to the weird things you do. Like, you may go through life constantly washing you hands and ritualistically washing your hair and being all, "Oh my gosh, I'm so weird," but I think it CAN (it may not) give you comfort to be able to put a name to your issues and just be able to say, "It's OK. I have OCD. There's a reason. I'm not crazy." That's what I think anyway.
Now, online tests are pretty cool. I kinda have done many... Including the Sanity Quiz or something. You do like, a 5-page quiz and it gives you a score for many different mental illnesses/disorders/various other issues. Your highest scored ones are "danger zones" and then gives you advice for them and lower scoring ones. Pretty interesting, actually. I totes have no issues with drugs or alcohol, guys :P
I also realised yesterday (I really didn't do much work yesterday) how much I like side characters in books, TV shows, movies, animes etc. Main characters generally bore me. I don't usually dislike them, but I am usually indifferent to them. If there is a main guy and a main girl, I generally dislike the girl and like the guy. Also, I don't usually like the fan favourites...
EXAMPLES:
- Fruits Basket. Sure, my favourite character is one of the main ones, but I never liked Tohru, the MAIN character. She bored me. And annoyed me. And I strongly disliked Yuki, a fan favourite.
- AnoHana. Yeah, I've only recently started this, but still. Jintan= boring. Menma= meh. Typical, cute girl. I am indifferent towards the both of them. Yukiatsu (more of a side character)- favourite. Love him. Basically, I like the other four 'less-major' characters (Yukiatsu, Anaru, Poppo & Tsuruko) but not the main two.
- Total Drama. Yeah. Phantomess and I were talking about this very thing this afternoon. Here is my group of favourite characters from all three seasons: Heather, Alejandro, Duncan, Harold, Trent, Courtney. Apart from Duncan, these guys are all generally pretty hated in the fandom. There are some fans, though. Now, the favourites of the fandom: Gwen, Cody, Noah. Never liked Gwen- one of my least favourites. Indifferent towards Cody. I like Noah, but I often forget about him.
- Special A. Indifferent towards the main female, Hikari. I loved the main male, Kei and the minor male characters Tadashi and Ryuu.
- La Corda D'Oro. Hino (took my awhile to remember her name) bored me. I didn't like most of the guys that much, I just loved Tsukimori, and he is either loved or hated by fans.
- Wicked. Strangely. Kind of. Now, I like most characters. And of course, I like Elphaba, but... for a lot of it, I didn't feel drawn to her, as a character. My feelings towards Elphaba are very hard to explain. Ones that I just loved outright were Glinda, Fiyero and, strangely enough, Nessarose.
- My Fair Lady. Eliza's pretty meh. I hated the guts of Henry Higgins. Favourite character? Freddy.
- Matched. The book I recently finished reading. Didn't care much about the main character. For some reason, I really did not like the guy she fell in love with. Instead, I like the guy she ditched for Guy She Fell In Love With. I keep meaning to do a review of this book...
Anyway, you get the point. Linking both of the topics of this post together, I realised on the bus home today, that I like characters with issues. Freudian Excuses. Troubled But Cute. Jerk With A Heart of Gold. Even good ol' Jerkass. I love characters, particularly attractive male characters, with weird internal issues.
I have also come to the realisation of the inflation in my fangirl behaviours over the past year. Not even a whole year, really. Before this year and some of last year, I never used to be anywhere near as interested in fictional characters. I didn't really listen to songs from certain bands *cough*Relient K*cough* to hear the very attractive voices of certain singers *cough*Matthew Thiessen*cough*. I never used to obsessively look up pictures of characters I found attractive to compile large folders of pictures before creating collages... Well, I like my obsessions, you know. It's fun to emotionally attach yourself to other lives. Yes, at times it is quite depressing, but whatever.
What's that? I have a Physics assignment due in 2 weeks? I have a Maths exam next week? I have a concert on next Saturday on a piece I can't play? I have English Extension stuff due soon? And English homework due tomorrow? Hm. Writing it all there made me realise how badly I do need to get off here. And made me feel kinda stressed. No. Calm. Breathe.
Title courtesy of TVTropes: http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/Ptitle6vgp6b47
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