That's All There Is, There Isn't Anymore...

Just watched the "finale" of La Corda D'Oro, my latest anime obsession. The reason for the inverted commas, or whatever you call them, is that it's the final episode... Followed by a special episode... Followed by two other episodes in a sort-of-second-season-thing. Whatever, it was the final. Now, in this episode, it was time for the final selection, the members of the concours' final performance to see who wins the concours. It was cheesiest thing I've seen since, I don't know, the Fruits Basket manga finale, probably. But the thing is, it didn't make me gag. It made me cry. At least three times. Now, I am, for some unknown reason, feeling extremely emotionally unstable right now. Emotional instability+finale of an addictive anime+insane cheesiness+good music+character development of like, every character= not a good combination. The tears were flowing.

This made me think about my dislike of anime finales. Or just finales of any show. I mean, everyone hates it when your favourite TV show ends, but there's something else about it. When Fruits Basket, more especially the manga, ended, I felt so strange inside. It's completely stupid, because it's a manga, but I felt like I'd lived with those guys. I'd been through their good times and their bad times and seen them change and develop into better characters. Now everyone was reflecting on that and I could reflect too, because I'd been with them. Of course they were just drawings, but still.

It was like that for La Corda D'Oro. Everyone has some character development. While playing their final pieces, all impressive and cool pieces, each person reflect on how the central character, Hino Kahoko, had changed them and changed their music and made them, and their music, grow and improve. It was nice, but cheesy. And tearjerking, for me anyway. Hino herself was reflecting on how she had changed when listening to their performances (even though she was rehearsing in some classroom....) and how they had taught her so much. There were flashbacks and montages galore. I cried because, I felt I knew her. I guess I'd seen her start playing her violin, have issues, have good times, break her magic violin, quit the violin, go through a very depressing time and then realise how much she loved the violin, start playing again, albeit not very well, and just stand up again and not let herself be defeated. She is an anime character, but when I think about what I just typed, she's kinda inspirational. Of course, she did manage to make at least 4 boys fall in love with her in the process. I mean, at the end of the episode she got to have a performance from a cute trumpet-player (who has a self-confessed, obvious crush on her), an attractive pianist (who has a thing for her, but hasn't admitted it, even though it's OBVIOUS), an adorable (in a "n'aww, isn't that boy cute" kinda way) cellist (who kinda has a thing for her, but not quite as strong), an apparently (according to the female population of their school) attractive flautist (whose feelings are... questionable) and a flipping HOT violinist (who is SO in love with her, just hasn't totally realised/admitted it yet) play her a piece of music. I mean, what kinda girl gets 5 attractive guys to play her a piece of music because they all like her? Dude. Seriously. Anyway, this anime has kind of inspired me too, so I'm sad it's over. Even though tomorrow I'll watch the other 3 episodes...

It's been like this for all my favourite anime/cartoons (gotta throw a shout out to Total Drama, yo). The last couple of episodes of a series seem to feel so nostalgic to me. Even now, after seeing it like, 50 times, whenever I watch the alst couple of episodes (excluding the last one, as it is a travesty) of Total Drama World Tour, one of my favourite shows ever, I feel so nostalgic. I could recite the entire second-last episode to you while it was playing, but I still feel so nostalgic inside, and kinda get butterflies. It's so weird, the feeling that everything that you have delved into with you whole life, something you've invested SO much time and emotions and thought into is ending. I guess that's it. It's not really just watching a show. I, for one, get SO involved. I find favourite characters and read about them, look up pictures, create collages, talk about them to friends and family, whether they care (and they usually don't) or not. I rant about how much I hate my least favourite characters. I choose at least one attractive male character and fangirl like crazy, reading all about him, looking up a million pictures, ranting all the time and grinning whenever he's in a scene. I invest so many emotions into favourite characters and SO much emotions into my ships that it just feels... strange... to have it end, so suddenly.


Now, you might read this and say to your computer, "Oh, for goodness sake. It's just a freaking anime! Get a life and find some REAL people to invest your time and emotions into..." To you, I say, "Shut up." Yeah. This is how it feels for me, watching a show and, consequently, ending a show and I both hate it.. and love it.. 


The one thing I was disappointed in with this final episode was the lack of ROMANCE. With 4 guys in love with her, she didn't get with any of them! Especially not the guy I want her with. *sigh*
But, of all the montages she thought of, hers with Tsukimori, the aforementioned hot violinist, was the most romantic and shippy... Apparently they get together in the manga, so I need to read this manga, haha. 


I guess this is my post's finale then. N'aww. Don't be sad. Don't cry. I know you've gotten attached to this post and invested time and emotions into it, but it's OK :)

Tsukimori Len. Well, heellooo  ;)